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Tuesday, January 4th, 2005
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i stole this from britney. but it's all soo true!
"HOW TO LOVE A GIRL: tell her you think that she's cool. tell her why you think she's so cool. smell her. talk to her in movie theaters. pick her up and pretend you're going to throw her in the river, she'll scream and fight you but secretly, she'll love it. hold her hand and skip. hold her hand and run. just hold her hand. pick her flowers out of other people's gardens and give them to her. tell her she looks pretty. let her pay for stuff if she wants to. introduce her to people as 'the coolest girl i know'. sit in the park and talk to her. take her to the library and playgrounds and train stations. tell her dirty jokes. tell her stupid jokes. talk about politics. write poems about her. just walk around with her. throw pebbles at her window at night, when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her. take her to shows of bands she's never heard. hold her hand in the mosh pit. let her fall asleep in your arms. call her. call her back if she calls you. sing to her, no matter how bad you are. carve your names into a tree. get her mad, then kiss her. give her piggy-back rides. give her space if she needs it. push her on swings. stay up with her all night when she's sick. make up pet names for her, but cool ones, not sappy ones. make her mix tapes. write her letters. when shes sad hang out with her or stay on the phone even if shes not saying anything. buy her ice cream. let her take all the photos of you she wants. look into her eyes. slow dance with her, even if the music if fast. kiss her in the rain. when you fall in love with her, tell her. "
well this was cute and all. but really, fuck getting hurt.
i put up a shield, it just happened. i didnt mean for it to come up,
but i know when to protect myself.
im just scared of so much, theres so much to loose,
everything and more.
even a friendship would be lost.
which is my everything.
i cant sleep at night.
during the day i get a sick feeling.
when i think too hard, or too far into things i go crazy.
is this how love is?
this can't be healthy for me.
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Saturday, January 1st, 2005
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im going to try and think back on the good and bad of '04.
+started school.
+met a lot of people.
+fell in love.
+had my first valentines date.
+made a ton of good memories.
-my car breaking down all the time and getting broken into.
+felt like i became a member in another family.
+had the best birthday ever.
+got engaged.
-not getting a summer break, and realizing i never will again. ha
-or christmas break.
-got un engaged and broke things off.
+decided to work things out.
+had the best christmas ive ever had before.
+and the best new years eve.
well here's to 2005.
this year i would like to...
graduatate school.
get my cosmetology license.
get a good paying job!
get in shape.
make people happy.
make myself happy.
and most of all, have fun.
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Saturday, December 25th, 2004
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i just want to tell everyone happy holidays!
i hope everyone has a good day.
no matter what you celebrate or what you believe in.
i cant say enough how thankful i am for friends.
new and older. i love them all with everything i have.
today has been so good to me so far.
i know it's not important.. but i got everything and more than i asked for.
i really wasnt expecting that. it's never happened actually. haha.
anyone up for some crazzzzy shopping?
well i love you all. and have a wonderful day!
:)
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Monday, December 20th, 2004
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today was amazzzzzing.
that's all i can really say.
:)
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Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
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Thursday, December 9th, 2004
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so i looked back exactly one year ago today.
i was so incredibly happy.
not saying that im not happy today,
but jeez.. i was like off the wall bouncy happy.
hahah.
i love whitson and mel.
they're my bestfriends and all that i could ask for.
i'd be jealous, cuz their awesome.
<333
i get to see mel tomorrow!
cuz im cutting her hair,
and then hopefully hanging out with whit after school.
ps. ive been laying in bed the past few days cuz ive been sick,
someone should bring me some yummy food that i can eat.
:)
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Monday, December 6th, 2004
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i think i might start writing in here again,
MAYBE.
fresh new start.
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jesse is getting sick. :(
plus he has an infected ingrown hair..
so we're going to the dermotologist tomorrow.
i feel so bad for him.
last nights show was fun.
it was nice meeting a few new people.
and seeing some older faces.
i really would like to get away
to california for a few weeks..
too bad i cannot miss a single day of school.
i'm in so much over time.
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so this was a bad day.
then the best day.
( +5 )
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Thursday, June 10th, 2004
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